Early this morning, Fairuz messaged me, saying that he is unable to meet me this Saturday. Then, I thought to myself: “Did we agree to meet on Saturday? I did not have any idea at all.” Anyway, it was a blessing in disguise that he is unable to meet it then as I have Jiemin’s birthday to attend.
Work was boring, as usual. It seems like I have no motivation to work nowadays. No reason for it though… Left at 4.30pm, waited for Darlene to go off so that we can go gym together.
She came to my house 1st as I have to get changed. Let her look at my photo albums. It seems like this is what everyone do when their friends come to their house. From here, she has saw me when I was very thin, acceptable, FAT and becoming slim again. From her comments and when I look over the photos again, I like myself best when I took the photo in Star Virgo. To get that point, I have gone to gym once a week for 5 months!!! For now, I have been going 3 times a week. Maybe will get a lesser time to slim down. I HOPE…
But disaster struck when I reached home. Saw this guy standing in front of my house, looking for Mummy. I TOLD YOU SHE IS NOT HOME!!! SHE NEVER PICK UP OUR CALL!!! He keep insisting that we call till she pick up our call. I slammed the door at him. Did not bother what he will do then. He left, I guess.
Was very pissed already then. Stuff myself with bread!!! Ate more than usual I guess. Seems like what I have lost in gym today has been gained back by what I ate. This is so me… Stuffing myself with food whenever I am unhappy or pissed.
The best thing that happened to me today was to be able to talk to Darling. He is back in Singapore already. Asked him if he were to let me decide, I would not want him to go Langakawi to work. And he agreed. Going to look for a job in Singapore. Love you Dear. Looking forward to December where we can go Langakawi. Hope that all my sisters will agree to go as well.
Still wondering if I want to go Union Square with Cruise and maybe also with Joey on Friday. Dear allowed me to go.
Still wondering if I should ask Dear to meet me tomorrow? Or should we meet on Friday?
Will be heading to the gym again on Friday morning, before going to work. But on Saturday, should I go cycling as well? I have been yearning to cycle for a long time. But I think after cycling, I will sweat and smell. Not a nice way to present myself to the birthday girl and others there as well.
I AM DETERMINED TO BE SLIM AGAIN!!!
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
1:57 PM